As we all learn on this crazy ride called life, people in our lives come and go. Some people stay around longer than others. Some people come into our lives as a blessing and others come into our lives as a lesson. Some people we don't even realize have gone missing from our lives, while other people's absence in your life leaves you feeling like a part of you is missing to.
One of the hardest experiences that I have had to go through in my life is growing apart from people who I once called my best friend. It was especially hard seeing myself grow apart from best friends that I didn't want to grow apart from. But it wasn't my choice. I was the one who tried to make it work. I was the one who always texted first to start a conversation and asked to hang out. So to those who were once my best friend at one point and then left without an explanation: I forgive you. We never ended on bad terms. Thanks to you, I have learned to grow a thicker skin. I have learned that everything happens for a reason, and when one door closes, another one opens. Thanks to you, I found myself making new best friends that share the same interests I now have.
Even though my life has been extremely blessed and I am so glad to have the people that I do in my life currently, I still can't help but sometimes look back on the past and wish some things could have stayed the same. I get nostalgic a lot. Facebook memories doesn't really help leaving the past in the past, and cleaning out the pictures on my laptop to make more storage definitely leaves me feeling emotional. I have never been the type to cut someone off, especially someone who never did wrong to me. So I will never understand why you would do that to me. I gave you so many memories, my family and I. I was there through so much for you. I was only a phone call or text away. I can be angry, but I have realized that you clearly don't care about my emotions anyway, so why should I continue to waste them on you?
But, at the end of the day, through all the anger and hurt, I can never devalue all of the memories we have made. From hanging out all day as little kids, to making stupid videos that looking back were SO embarrassing, I can't act like none of that ever happened. You were such a huge part of my life at one point, and our relationship in one way or another has helped shape me into the successful woman I am today.
I am genuinely not mad at you anymore. Yea, there were days I asked friends and family what they thought about the situation. I asked them if I did anything wrong. But at the end of the day, none of that matters. What happened has happened, and I don't have bad things to say. You decided to live your life one way, and I decided to live my life another way, I guess.
But what happened? What was it that made you let go of the person you once called your best friend? And the fact you let me go as if I never mattered to at point. I could never think of doing something like that. What exact day did you decide that you were going to do this? Do you even miss me at all?
I have come to terms with the fact that I will probably never get your side of your story, especially because this happened so long ago. I just wished you could've stayed around longer to see where my career has led me, I wanted you to meet my boyfriend. I have been with him for TWO YEARS now. I think he is the one. I just hope that you find love and happiness in your life as well, even if I am not a part of that.
And just always know, no matter what, I am still only a phone call or text away.